Back Home

I think I had mentioned in one of my earlier posts that I hated nine to five jobs, and here I am back to one.  It is a case of both chance and choice. This has happened after six years of mobility from one thing to another and not getting anywhere in particular. I was trying a bit too hard to be a good free lancer in a world of competition of luck and wit rather than intellectuals  or professionals with the drive for  excellence. Simultaneously, I imagined I would have a training institute or CSO of my own and I found myself competing unconsciously with people who were born on a golden platter and fed with a spoon of gold. 

My free lancing experience was nevertheless enriching, while my imagination taught me to think creatively. The learning I've had in these past years is something I could have not had in twenty years if I had adhered to  'business as usual.' So, do I regret not having been in a nine to five job? Of course not! Am I sad to be back into it? Certainly not! 

Why am I not sad? Well, first of all I am in a field (Education) that I am most passionate about (besides dancing ). Second, it offers opportunities for inhibited research work and innovations. I never enjoyed 'doing as instructed to do' - one of the reasons 'fitting in' has been a major problem for me most times. Chamchagiri has never ever received any acknowledgment or recognition in my dictionary and I sympathize with those people I know who chamcha-d and are suffering today from not getting the lift they once got from hardly achieving anything extraordinary. Lesson: Chamchagiri is unreliable in helping us sustain ourselves. Better to build our own capacity and capitalize on that and we would have no cause for severe concerns. My all time advice: Belong with others harmoniously, but never to the point of losing yourself. Shortcuts are short, after all, and cannot really get us far enough. This is my personal belief.

Being back in the field of education makes me feel like I'm 'back home.' I wonder if this is how it is with our people who have travelled to the far west with big dreams. Do they feel they're back home when they get back? I'm sure they do. I've travelled too, although not privately, and never felt at home anywhere else but here in our home country. The fresh air.....the greenery......the miles of wilderness in the east......the caring village hosts.......the people's innocence........all these put together can never ever be matched by other places. And, in a world of great uncertainties due to global warming Bhutan truly feels like haven. Exactly so in the world of consultancy here - full of uncertainties! So, yes, being back into a nine to five job in my field of expertise feels like being in haven. There will be challenges, as there were before, and this is what's going to make the job even more enticing, like driving along our bumpy roads is.

So, here I am. Back home. It feels good. Warm. Batteries recharged....... and rechargeable.